Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Dr. Mccarus

Ahh, well. What a day it was. Joe and I just got home from Orlando. We left this morning at 9:15ish for a 1:00 doctors appointment. What a doctors appointment it was.

First off, let me just say that everything this doctor is, I've been looking for since last October. Everything he said was right on, he agreed with my thoughts on Lupron (which, btw, shocked me to no end), and explained to me in "people terms" why I was feeling what I was feeling. I'll break it down:

A.) Recurring fevers - there are spots on Endometriosis on my cervix, left ovary, etc. During the week or so before my period, these spots are becoming inflamed. Because of the inflammation, my body sends out white blood cells to attack the areas. This makes my body think there is an infection, thus lowering my immune system. If there is a person around me with even the tiniest of sniffles, I'll get that illness tenfold. And there we have the recurring fevers of 102*+. He thinks that removal of the adhesions will keep fevers ad other illnesses at bay. Let's keep our fingers crossed.

2.) Uterus - I've been told since I'm 16 that my uterus is titled, aka retroverted uterus. This means my uterus is tilted backwards. Anything can cause this (from child birth to endo), and only a surgical procedure will fix it. Its called an UPLIFT Procedure (sounds like some fun type of plastic surgery, huh?!). When you're lying down on your back, your uterus should lie flat as well. Your cervix should be face outward toward your vagina. In my case, my cervix is tilted upward toward my belly button. The UPLIFT Procedure will put everything back in it's rightful place by repositioning the uterus and stitching it to the inside of the abdomen to keep it in place.

3.) Endometriosis - As I wrote before, I do have endo again. Dr M did not feel much, but of course he wants to take a further look with another lap. He feels my bowels are in danger due to the location of the nodules that he felt. On July 7th I have an appointment with one of the best bowel surgeons in the US. If he feels the need to be present during the surgery because of the location of the endo, he'll join Dr M. Let's hope he doesn't. Oh top of all of this, Dr M feels I would benefit from a presacral plexus (PSN). Near the back of your uterus and spine there is a network of nerves. A PSN is a procedure that deadens the nerves to the uterus causing less pain during periods and intercourse. While the cure rate seems to be impressive,, I feel this procedure might be a little outdated. And, to be honest, a PSN sounds downright scary. Joe is concerned with the deadening of other nerves to the rest of my body, which is a legit fear. I'm not sold on this yet, but I'm keeping my mind open to anything the could help in the long run.

Overall, I think today was extremely successful. The shitty thing is Joe and I have to skip Italy this August. I'm really sad about this, but as Joe said, Italy isn't going anywhere. We both left Dr M's office full of confidence and positivity. We both feel August will be the start of a new healthy life for me :)

Thanks for reading this book! LOL.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Oprah Show

One of the girls on Endo Resolve found this site:

Please sign to help us raise awareness!

Monday, June 1, 2009

You know you have Endo when...

Collected from Endo Resolve!

1. You have been complaining of abnormal periods since the age of 15 and all the doctors say is 'get pregnant it'll clear up'

2. A friend tells you ' you can't have endo because you'd be in much worse pain that that'

3. You look permanently pregnant

4. You end up passing out with pain because you can't take painkillers at work

5. When you do eventually get a doctor to do an laparascopy, he finally believes you- and then tells you it's Stage 4 and you'll never get pregnant or carry to term. And then he tells you at age 27 (in my personal case, he told me this at 23), it's better to have a hysterectomy

6. Your purse sounds like a shaker because you carry so many bottles of pain medication ....

7. Your friends can always count on you for a fix when they have a bad headache.....

8. You think maternity clothes look comfortable....

9. Your co-workers have caught you sitting at your desk with the button on your pants undone....

10. You practice breathing exercises while driving ( similar to lamaze)....

11. Your boss has caught you with your head on your desk ... and you told him to "Get Lost" ....

12. You wear pajamas at all times of the day.

13. Tylenol doesn't work.

14. All of your other problems pale in comparison to the pain.

15. Everyone's problems pale in comparison to the pain.

16. You have three mood settings: happy, sad and angry.

17. You stole your grandma's muumuus, so you could wear them. (true story)

18. You laugh when your doctor tells you to take pain meds before the pain begins. Seriously I should just make them into a candy necklace.

19. You start getting pissed at the pregnant patients in the waiting room at the OB/GYN.

20. You tell your doctor you have been bleeding constantly from the Provera and they say, "yeah spotting can happen."

21. When you don't do anything fun on a "good" day, and you know you will feel horrible on the day you have plans

22. You start debating treatments from the potential side effects.

23. You buy all of your underwear, pants, and shorts two sizes two big and make sure they don't have clunky waistbands

24. You can function on pain levels that most people can't imagine

25. You laugh when someone tells you to take ibuprofen or midol because M&M's are just as effective

26. You rent an apartment or buy a house specifically because it has a bathtub rather than a shower

27. If one more person tells you that "It's just a little bit of cramping" you're going to cry...right after you disembowel them

28. You're on medications that were actually developed for cancer patients and that doesn't phase you

29. As your fertility is questioned, you suddenly want to have kids more than ever.

30. You are familiar with the "Recovery Position" because that is how you sleep every night

31. None of your clothes fit because your weight yo-yos so much from the drugs, bloating, and from being to sick to eat

32. You think that the medical profession is a joke after the hell they've put you through

33. Your local pharmacist greets you by name when you walk in the door

34. Your doctor no longer asks "how are you?" just "what shall we try this time"

35. You are more comfortable talking about bowel issues than you ever thought you would be

36. Your severe pelvic pain is diagnosed as PID... But you're still a virgin.

37. You have no sympathy for women approaching menopause. You did all that after your last op at 23 and had 5 years worth of menopause crammed into 6 months. And you have never looked the same.

38. When you wish your husband's penis was smaller...

39. When your medicine cabinet looks like a pharmacy

40. You carry pain killers with you EVERYWHERE

41. You laugh when people tell you they have advil if you need it

42. You can't stop buying sweatpants

43. Your coworkers can count on you for drugs, tens units and heating pads

44. You dont dare take all of your vacation days at once

45. You trade getting fat for trying to get rid of your pain

46. You wonder whats going on when your not curled in fetal position on the floor and think maybe you should see a doctor

47. You've been through more doctors than you have fingers

48. Having surgery is no longer a big deal, you're a pro

49. You've researched getting a lower body transplant

50. You want to smack someone when they say, "ugh, I have the worse cramps ever."

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Long time no post.

Ahh. Back from vacation, into my new work schedule, and getting ready to hit the Keys on Thursday. Let's hope the weather holds up.

My new vitamin/holistic treatments have been going awesome. In the first week I lost 6lbs by just changing my diet to a insulin resistant form, though I promptly gained the weight back in NYC (Hey, there was a Mr. Softee on every corner and Magnolia was a block from our hotel. What was a girl to do?). Joe and I started back at the gym this evening, not only did it feel great, but I had more than enough energy to get through 40 minutes on the elliptical! That might not seem like a feat to others, but to me, it's a hugeee step in the right direction.

Since I've started this blog, I've discovered something. There are a lot of women with Endo. More than I really probably ever imagined. I also noticed that they are all looking for someone to understand what they are going through. Far and few between are there people who truly get what Endometriosis is, and unless they are someone who suffers or personally know someone who suffers, they simply have no idea. We Endo girls are a tight-knit group, who in the face of so many things, conqur every day life with a smile and grace. When we find someone else who has this disease we run to them in a way that can only be described as hopeful and optimistic. We are thankful to find another person who "gets it."

So, to those women out there who "get it," this is for you. :D

P.s. 6 months after Joe proposed, I finally finally finally booked a photog for our E-Pics. Yay!

Saturday, May 16, 2009


Off to NYC tomorrow for a bit of a vacation! Be back on the 21st with pictures :) And a full tummy! Maybe I'll even make an impromptu visit to the Endo Foundation? Hmmmmm....

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A few reasons to smile

1.) Luciano aka "Lucky"

2.) Rocco

3.) Bella

Monday, May 11, 2009

Sleepy head

Despite massive (ok, maybe not massive...) amounts of B-12 and CoQ10... I'm exhausted. 

What is that all about?

Dear exhaustion, go away. Thanks. - Me